I want a do-over for this whole damn day

Had a great day at work yesterday, and when I left work in the wee hours last night/this morn, I was in a good mood. I was tired, but I needed to go grab a money order for the rent, so I decided I would sit and read for a little bit while I wait for the mini-mart to open. After a while, I got tired of sitting there, so drove down the road to grab something to drink.

And that’s when my great day went to shit…

I came out to find my window gone, along with my purse and my work bag. Those rotten assholes who robbed me got everything – they even stole the change in my cupholder and my friggin hoodie. Who steals a goddamn hoodie? What’s worse, they got my wallet with all the money I’ve saved over the past 3 weeks towards rent and the power bill. And they got my SS card, my cred card, my gift card – all of it – they cleaned me out. I gave all my info to them, so they will call me once they check the cameras and have any info on who did it – but in the meantime, I’m so screwed. I’m distressed and angry and frustrated and freaked out.

I’m usually a pretty open minded person. If someone steals a few bucks from me, I think to myself “that sucks and was wrong, but maybe they were hungry and had no other way to eat”. I don’t like that they stole from me, when all they needed to do was ask and I would have given it, but I don’t lose sleep over it.

This is different though. This was breaking into my car, stealing not just *all* my money, but my SS card and everything else. This was not some person needing some food – this was some piece of shit stealing because they could. I can’t even begin to describe how upset I have been all day over this. I spent the morning calling people, trying to sort all of this out and report stuff stolen. And in the end, I am screwed cuz everything I had was in that wallet. I don’t make a great deal of money – I work as a bartender, which means my income is determined by tips. To have what I’ve worked so hard to earn stolen like that, along with all the rest of it, is so disheartening.

So here I sit, freaking out, wondering how the hell I’m going to pay the rent and power bill now. I called the power company and arranged to delay it for a few days, so I can probably make that bill after I work on Wednesday, but after talking to the leasing office, I’m screwed on the rent. They will only allow you 10 days before they file a writ of removal, and they add fees daily, so by the time that happens, it will have an even bigger amount to come up with. If I go past their file date, it goes up even higher.

This is insanity. I feel like I’m stepped through the looking glass and landing in a world where people no longer give a flying rat’s ass about anything but themselves. Someone suggested I go create a gofundme page and tell my story, to see if my good karma comes back to me and people help. It seems naive to ask strangers to help and think they will, but considering how screwed I am right now, I think I will give the naive option a shot. What can it hurt?

I’ve got 9 days to beat that deadline. I’m working as much as I can and will do my best to accumulate as much as possible, but I know I’m operating beyond what I can actually accomplish. I can’t make that kind of money in 4-5 shifts, it’s not possible. I’m not going to make it without help, so I swallowed my pride and created my gofundme page, asking the cosmos at large for help.

Please check the page out, you can find it – Here – and if you can help, it would be so greatly appreciated. I don’t know how I can thank those who choose to help, but I can certainly pay it forward and show my thanks by helping someone else in need once I am back on track.

Thanks for listening to me rant folks. Say a prayer for me, I’m gonna need it.

~ G ~

My Gofundme.com Page